I remember the first time saw rich I was on a bus going down nimpsfield hill and he crossed the road and I just thought that's the man I am going to marry crazy as it sounds it is true.we where only together for about 5years and we had xan .strange really it was so hard to conceive her and we both had lots of tests done but he didn't have much to do with her or Toni in my heart ♥I believe he wanted to but didn't now how to or is that me hoping it so as not to feel it was worthless did I love him yes was I angry with him yes

I just keep thinking silly boy yo has so much too offer your smarter I mean reay smart talented kind but you just could not cope I am so sorry your life turned out as it did and I wish it was different I feel guilty i was not there as much as i could have been. For Toni when she was younger I wish i had mad more of an effort to talk xan to see you.i talk responsibility for my part in our marriage but I left you because i felt and still feel it was th right thing to do thankyou for giving me two most beautiful girl I try to do my best for them both I wish I could have fixed things for you rest well and be at peace you where loved